X (erstwhile Twitter) might be a ghastly place nowadays, but it continues to remain a great source of book recommendations (for me at least), and thanks to Andrew Male (who writes wonderfully about music, books, films, TV) I discovered Lars Gustafsson.
It’s strange, Torsten said to himself, that I’m having so many peculiar thoughts today. Some really unpleasant, and some rather nice ones.
Things are coming back to me that I haven’t thought of for years.
It’s as if this strange house had some kind of influence on how you think.
These paragraphs convey the essence of Lars Gustafsson’s marvellous novella A Tiler’s Afternoon, a strange, hypnotic, existential tale exploring loss, the power of memories, the meaning of work, and the mysteries of life, that as the title suggests captures one working day in the life of an ageing, lonely tiler.
On a grey November morning in 1982, we meet Torsten Bergman, the tiler of the title and our protagonist, aged 65 and living alone in Uppsala, Sweden. Torsten appears to be a man at the end of this tether, and the neglected appearance of his house and garden pretty much mirror his own wretched state (“The entire garden a littered, jumbled monument to the collected works of his whole life. Or, as some might have put it, the failures”). This crumbling garden is also a symbol of the twin tragedies in Torsten’s life captured in one fell swoop – his wife Britta is dead (“There was no need for flower-beds now, when you didn’t have a wife”), while a lawn mower bought in the year his child was born, now abandoned in the corner of the garden, in a way conveys the son’s absence from Torsten’s life.
But then one Thursday morning, the piercing shrill of the telephone sets the stage for the unravelling of a puzzling, disconcerting set of events. Woken from the depths of his slumber, Torsten struggles to place the caller at the other end of the line, but when the Finnish accent finally registers in his addled brain, so does the identity of the caller. It turns out to be a man called Pentti, a plumber and a jack of all trades, who has worked with Torsten in the past and has come across a work opportunity for him at a big, old-fashioned, suburban house. It appears that the previous tilers had done a rather haphazard job retiling the bathroom and kitchen, and the owners are looking for a reliable tiler who will do the work well. Pentti has no clue about the identity of the owners, although he is quick to assure Torsten, that these are not the type of people to take loans and then squander the money on drinks and other frivolous pleasures.
Nursing a bad headache and a chronic stomach sickness, Torsten scribbles the address on a piece of paper and gears himself up with great difficulty to begin his day, a day that will transform into something odd and undefinable, although he is not to know it at the time. When Torsten lands up at the house that is to be his workplace, he is impressed by its stylishness and ambitious planning. But there’s not a soul to be found, no one to give him orders and explain what is expected of him in terms of the work involved. As Torsten begins to wander through this peculiar house and its empty rooms, he comes to the bathroom and is appalled by the shoddy tiling work left unfinished. Before him, a battery of tilers appeared to have worked on laying tiles, the quality of work significantly deteriorating with each successive tiler.
Priding himself on his resourcefulness, Torsten gets to work despite the lack of instructions – he takes it upon himself to break the badly laid tiles and redo everything with precision and quality. Luckily, new tiles are already there, but what he desperately needs are materials and the money to buy them. Chancing upon the expensive array of taps, an idea takes hold of him – why not sell these taps and with the money buy the materials? If he has to get going, something needs to be done, and with no one around to tell him what to do, he is going to have to think for himself.
As the day unfolds, and Torsten is contentedly immersed in his tiling work, he begins to daydream about the mysterious Sophie K who has a room on the top floor with her name displayed on the door but whom Torsten hasn’t yet met. In one dream, Sophie K is an attractive red-haired woman who warns him of the owners he is working for; they could be drug dealers. In another iteration of the dream, Sophie K is a withered, old woman who resembles his own Aunt Sophie from his childhood, which immediately sets off a stream of memories flooding his mind related to his childhood and youth.
As a serious child and often sick, we learn of Torsten being bullied at school, we learn of his religious mother and his strict upbringing, his developing passion for photography and science, cameras and crystal wireless sets, objects that displease his mother. Memories of his young love, Irene, resurface from the recesses of his mind, a woman who disappears from his life as suddenly as she appears and symbolizes a world and class, utterly different from his.
As the day progresses, the continuing absence of the house owners begins to disturb Torsten, but at the same time, he also derives considerable pleasure from his work, confident of his skill and mastery when it comes to tiling. These quiet hours see him absorbed in his job, while flashbacks of various periods in his life flit before him.
When he bumps into another friend Stiggsy while buying materials, Torsten invites him to help while also enjoy some camaraderie over drinks and food in this lonely, abandoned house. If Torsten is a serious, reserved man, Stiggsy is a kind of counterfoil to his personality; Stiggsy has led a colourful life dabbling in various businesses and even becoming a preacher one time, a lively and often comic raconteur whose stories make Torsten wonder whether Stiggsy is telling the truth or fabricating lies.
But as the clock ticks away, when some strange discoveries are made and odd callers come knocking at the door, even Stiggsy begins to get unnerved by the mysterious quality of the house, the sense of unease beginning to rub off on Torsten too.
By turns quiet, understated, and unsettling, A Tiler’s Afternoon, then, is a meditation on the meaning of life and work, where the ordinariness of the everyday reveals concepts that are far more profound and universal. It is a novella suffused with nuggets of wisdom and insights into human nature, particularly in the way it charts the entire life of our protagonist within these slim pages.
Gustafsson excels at transforming seemingly unremarkable surroundings and objects into piercing reflections on the meaning of our existence in this world. For instance, the pungent scent of rotting leaves and the sluggish yellow river evokes “the raw scent of time itself” as Torsten ruminates on its peculiar quality of going too fast or too slow; the messy tiling work left unfinished at the house for Torsten is a metaphor for the deteriorating quality of life itself (“Was there any life of which you could say that it improved as time went on? Didn’t the bad habits get worse, the compromises more fudged, the inconsistencies greater?”); snowy winters evoke memories of his time with Irene and reveal class differences and a window into a forbidden world where Torsten is unwelcome, all captured in the space of a sentence; plants and flowers growing either on a luxurious garden bed or a cracked asphalt motorway symbolise not only the randomness of human life but also a feverish hope for something better irrespective of the circumstances.
Life doesn’t seem to serve our purposes, that much is obvious. We take it as we find it and make of it what we can. But the fact that we exist, that we are here, happens long before we know what to do with it. That’s the whole problem: that we haven’t asked for it. And then have to think of something to do with it.
Torsten’s complex personality unfurling is also fascinating to watch. Beset by loss and ill health, and a gradually deteriorating body and mind, Torsten’s reminisces depict a conflicted man striving for order in his work amid an otherwise chaotic personal life. More than anything, Torsten realises that the moral principles of abstinence and a structured way of living instilled in him in his childhood and youth are utterly worthless on entering adulthood when life’s burdens begin to take a toll on him. This contradictory behaviour is particularly palpable in his attitude towards alcohol – Torsten considers himself a teetotaler by heart while drinking heavily in reality as life begins to get increasingly unbearable…
Drunkenness was a form of worthlessness and disorder. But above all it was something that others fell into.
He himself used aquavit to achieve an order of a higher kind. An inner feeling of the meaningfulness of the world, you could perhaps say. For years he’d found it hard to get any sensible work done at all if he didn’t have a few swigs at lunchtime or just after, but at the time he detested his friends drinking on the job. That was self-contradictory, of course, and he realised it. But he had a strong feeling that the world had to be contradictory to be able to function. That was quite simply the way it was created. And no other world than that was imaginable, with all its contradictions.
In a day filled with weird encounters and inexplicable occurrences, the sense of irony is not lost on Torsten and the reader – that the tiling work that gave Torsten an anchor, and a sense of purpose and meaning, might turn out to be meaningless after all.
By now he was a long way from sense and reason and balance. He had a feeling of not belonging anywhere, of having nowhere to go, and that the only thing connecting him to the world was this bizarre, meaningless work.
The magnetic pull of memories is also wonderfully rendered here, apt for a man who derives joy from clicking pictures; the wondrous nature of photographic images gradually emerging from the depths of the black liquid in a darkroom shaping themselves into symbols of long-forgotten memories gradually revealing themselves to him.
Why had he gone in for photography so much as a boy? Was it his pleasure in the mysterious, the picture that emerged from the developing liquid? Or was it the fact that you could hold on to a picture? And sort of fish it back up out of time, that sluggish brown river of pictures and voices that disappeared?
A Tiler’s Afternoon is also not short on striking imagery of the kind we see for instance when Torsten, staunchly abstaining from alcohol for much of his youth finds the first sip to be an astonishing revelation…
He could never have imagined that anything so wonderful actually existed! It was, it seemed to him, as if you’d lived all your life in a little one-roomed flat and one day discovered that there was a huge room (light and welcoming, with big windows in all four walls, and billowing curtains and birdsong outside) hidden behind a wallpapered door.
It’s a book where sadness and absurdity seamlessly co-exist, particularly encapsulated in this conversation between Torsten and Stiggsy that is so revealing and heartbreaking and at the same time also bizarre:
“But first I had to lose the boy, of course. He was a good, decent boy: I had great hopes for him. But then he had to get in with those characters with their motorbikes. And things happened as they did.”
“Dreadful,” said Stig.
“Yes, it was dreadful. The wife was never the same again after that. She sort of lost herself. She’d go around doing her chores as before. But she wasn’t really there. Do you understand what I mean?”
“You can lose yourself. I’ve seen other people do it.”
“It became extremely peculiar after a while. It was a bit like talking to a goldfish.”
“Did you know that you can’t have goldfish together with other fish in an aquarium?”
Bleak and haunting with its masterful interplay of melancholia and wry humour, A Tiler’s Afternoon is a powerful little gem, one that is sure to find a place on my year-end list.